Its been a while since I last saw you!
It feels like forever since we hang out
I miss you
and even though I tell you that I miss you sometimes I dont mean it
Because you hurt me and yah maybe I hurt you too but just because you lied and kept all these secrets away from me.
I trusted you with all my heart and considered(still) as a sister.
I remember all those fun times that we tried to hide from everyone who judge you and him for what you guys were and did.
I never judge you and never will.
You know you guys mean the world to me.
Yes im not a perfect friend and yes people Manipulated me, but deep inside me i always belived in you guys.
I wasnt going to let rumors, gossip,and lies ruin our friendship. But somehow it still did.
I promised you that I was always going to be there...regardless what people said.
People...did the impossible to break our friendship
It hurt me
I felt betrayed.
I thought you trusted me. Your my sister.
Let me be honest with you, what hurted most from everything that happen was hidding your secret.
After all this time we were hanging out , going to places...and everything
You hide your biggest secrets from me
You stop talking to me and never knew why until I heard the rumors
That you were expecting
I couldnt beleive it,I refuse
I knew you wouldn't keep such secret from me,you trusted me(at least thats what i thought)
Then time flew for a bit,couple of months and i didn't hear from you at all
when I heard you were gone
Then that it was true,that you were expecting
I just couldnt beleive that it was true
It really wound me,from everything we have been through,you wouldnt tell me this.
What happen to trusting me? or having a sisterhood bond? our faiths? our friendship.
Remember when I sang this song to you:
Come on, it's me you're talking to
There's something going on inside of you
Don't have to say it, but I wish you would
Cause it would be much easier
You always hide behind yourself
You walk a lonely road with no one's help
I hate to break the news
You're headed for a fall
And if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout
I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with you
(I'm stinking with you)
Even if you try and shut me out
I'm staying here cause that's what love's about
I might let you down, but I won't let you go
So lean into me, I want to know
Everything about the fear you hold inside
Cause you and I are better than just one,
So if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout
I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with
If that's what it means to love you
If that's what it means to have your back
If that's what it takes to show you
Then I'm in, I'm in
If I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout
I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
And if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout
I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
Cuz I'm sticking with you.
(I'm sticking with you)
-Addidon Road
thats how much ou friendship meant to me..and always will.
There was just times I just wonder
Why didnt you tell me
But i won judge you and I will never do...and I never did.
Matthew 7:1-2
"Judge not, that you be not judged. "For with what judgent you judge, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you."
I will never judge you thats not my job
If he made you happy why didnt you tell me.
If he meant the world why didnt you tell me?
I kind of knew it
Cause you cant hide it from me
But its your life.
This is how I feel
And how I will always feel
